Death

This is a part two, kind of, to the Trust post.

Death is a mysterious thing. Some people fear it, some people want it, and some people... are just in the middle. Those people seem to care at first, they say that they will be there to help you. Then when you actually end up asking for it, they ignore your plea. This makes you feel worse... so much worse. You wake up dreading the next day you have to see them, because you know that you will end up ignoring them, either that or you will end up acting like the same old person, and you don't want to do either of them. Then you start to criticize yourself even more than you've ever done, but you know no one will help you. It makes you feel lonely. And loneliness is the next part

Trust

Trust is a fragile thing. It's an easy thing to break and it can hurt. Sometimes you don't know what to do but just stop talking to your friends. Everything drives you insane and you don't know what to say, about anything, you don't feel like talking. You ask for help and people do nothing. You bring so much attention to the things that you didn't want to say out loud, but they still don't understand. You feel disappointed and betrayed, but you don't know what to about it. Even now I don't know what to say.

Things nobody talk about

Sometimes you know what's going to happen. Things that you know are going to hurt you and you can't share the pain with anyone, because they won't understand. Nobody will get it and when you try not to think about it, that's all you can do. Sometimes the things that will happen don't surprise you. You've known deep down that it's always been true and you just try to ignore it. But in the end, it will find it's way back to you. Doesn't matter what you do about it, it will always catch up to you. And people lie, they always do, so that you don't find out the truth, but you know it's true, no matter what they say. You think it's your fault, you think that everything is your fault. And it doesn't what matter what people say, it doesn't stop you from crying. Crying about what you could've done and crying about what you have done. Then you just stop. Everything around you stops and nothing matters anymore, so you just live, even if there's nothing to live for. You pretend you're happy, while people are still out there lying to you. People say that they'll be there for you, but they're never here when you need them, and it makes you cry even more. Most people don't realize they're hurting you. They think that it's a joke, it's just harmless. People need to think before they talk, some people more than others. Everybody hurts, even the people that look like they have no care in the world. Actually those are the people who hurt more than others. You try to protect yourself from the world, but you can never prepare yourself for what happens, especially the things that are going to hurt more than others. And when you realize this, you feel like hurting yourself.

And if you say that you've never felt any of this, I know you're lying. Don't be like that. If you ever need to talk about this kind of stuff, I'm always here. I understand and sometimes it feels like you're never going to be okay, but if you don't rush it, things might become a little bit better, not okay, but better. I know better than others...

Fandoms (Ongoing List)

Obviously I'm a huge fangirl. These are some of the fandom I'm in- and I say some because I can't keep track of all the fandoms I'm in. I would love to talk to you about these.

Keeper of the Lost Cities
Disney
Harry Potter
Percy Jackson
Disney Descendants
Orange Marmalade
The Lunar Chronicles
Throne of Glass
Renegades
Carve the Mark
Your Lie in April
The Selection
Warriors
Marvel
Seven Deadly Sins
RWBY
Girl Meets World
Liv and Maddie
Ninjago
Miraculous Ladybug
My Little Pony: Equestria Girls
My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic
Thirteen Reasons Why
Divergent
Star Wars
School For Good and Evil
Spirit Animals
Hunger Games
Supergirl
Avatar the Last Airbender
Pitch Perfect
Greenhouse Academy

Key:

Purple Higlight- Obsessed

Blue Highlight- Love

Yellow Highlight- Used to be Obsessed

Welcome to this blog

Hey, it's PurpleArcticFox, or Foxy if you want. Oooh I also go by Arctic Fox. Of course that's not my real name, just some of my nicknames. Anyway, this blog is going to serve as a journal for my thoughts, cause I don't really like keeping regular journals. Mostly just going to be a bunch of fangirling, you've been warned. This blog is also here if you want any advice from me. And I really do mean any kind of advice. That's all for now. Check out my best friend's blog! Her name is Cylvia Gender and she's amazing.
Link is here ---> Starships and Windows, by Cylvia Anna Gender